Everywhere I go there are couples all around me. I can’t seem to get away from people holding hands, kissing and hugging. I know that it is just my heighten sense of awareness these days but it still does not feel nice. I have wondered why me. I am a good person. I treat people right. Why do I continue to pick men that don’t value me as much as I value them. I thought that my husband was GOD sent but now I have to question that. GOD only sends good and perfect gifts. These emotions that I am having are no where near perfect. I know there is a lesson in this somewhere but I can’t see it now. I really really thought my husband was different. I thought that we were moving in the right direction and then BAM! Just like to old batman cartoon, I’m was put flat on my back. All I know today is that still I love him. Even with him saying he does not want to be married, I wish him well in life and I never want to see anything bad happen to him or his family. As for me, I just need something simple. I want to wake up and go an entire day without tears and hurt. Baby steps! I will press forward and try to hold these pieces of my broken life together.